I got another letter from QUT and it's a step in the right direction.
My family is so proud of me they wanted to have a celebration.
Seriously, the last thing I wanted to do to do anything.
This year as been a mas of stressing, and a lot of hanging around waiting.
Turning all this time into more stress.
So now when I get some good news, I just turn into a sick mess.
Tears.
My head aches so much.
I feel like my limbs have no blood, they just seem to be made of lead and I'm going to fall down.
People party when they celebrate; I end up just crying.
I cannot wait until I have finished with all this stress and I can enjoy myself.
My family is so proud of me they wanted to have a celebration.
Seriously, the last thing I wanted to do to do anything.
This year as been a mas of stressing, and a lot of hanging around waiting.
Turning all this time into more stress.
So now when I get some good news, I just turn into a sick mess.
Tears.
My head aches so much.
I feel like my limbs have no blood, they just seem to be made of lead and I'm going to fall down.
People party when they celebrate; I end up just crying.
I cannot wait until I have finished with all this stress and I can enjoy myself.
I'm really feeling that making up a nice big batch of Christmas themed somethings would go down a treat right about now, however I am at work and this is not possible. Off I go to day dream about lil' ginger bread men.
I just got a letter from QUT saying:
"You've been given a rating of High Pass, this is the highest possible rating, if this is your first preference you will be considered for offers on the 17th of December."
Still not sure what to make of it, but I cannot breath.
I feel like I'm just about to faint.
"You've been given a rating of High Pass, this is the highest possible rating, if this is your first preference you will be considered for offers on the 17th of December."
Still not sure what to make of it, but I cannot breath.
I feel like I'm just about to faint.
Monday:
Today I have go West End to the deli to do the weekly shop, buy some flowers and stop off at Eight Ate Eight in New Farm for some lunch. I go to an RPM class and spend the night in some PJs watching Good News Week.
Tuesday:
All day at uni. Art lectures, French class followed by sushi with friends. I end the day with Japanese class and pick up a vegan pattie from Wrays Organic on the way home.
Wednesday:
I start the day with a run along the river before heading off to my internship with the style section of the Sunday Mail. I spend the day pulling clothes before heading off to GoMa and then dinner at Armets with Mum.
Thursday:
Back at uni today to spend the the morning in Art history lectures. I buy a salad buckwheat wrap and ice soy coffee before I go to a Bikram class before heading off for some late night shopping and a movie.
Friday:
Off early to the library to do my weekly study quota and snack on trail mix. After too much study I go for a hill run and then hop on the train to the city to get some cocktails with some work friends.
Saturday:
Bit of a sleep in, swim and a smoothie then get coffee with my mum in Paddington and we check out some shops.I head home to work on an assignment. I pain my nails and get glammed up for a second date at Jelly Fish with a cute Japanese photographer.
Sunday:
Heading off to the Valley Markets to pick up a dress for next week before I go back to the library to do some more study. After a Body Balance class I go solo to My Thai in Aurchenflower for dinner, and then rent some DVDs.
Today I have go West End to the deli to do the weekly shop, buy some flowers and stop off at Eight Ate Eight in New Farm for some lunch. I go to an RPM class and spend the night in some PJs watching Good News Week.
Tuesday:
All day at uni. Art lectures, French class followed by sushi with friends. I end the day with Japanese class and pick up a vegan pattie from Wrays Organic on the way home.
Wednesday:
I start the day with a run along the river before heading off to my internship with the style section of the Sunday Mail. I spend the day pulling clothes before heading off to GoMa and then dinner at Armets with Mum.
Thursday:
Back at uni today to spend the the morning in Art history lectures. I buy a salad buckwheat wrap and ice soy coffee before I go to a Bikram class before heading off for some late night shopping and a movie.
Friday:
Off early to the library to do my weekly study quota and snack on trail mix. After too much study I go for a hill run and then hop on the train to the city to get some cocktails with some work friends.
Saturday:
Bit of a sleep in, swim and a smoothie then get coffee with my mum in Paddington and we check out some shops.I head home to work on an assignment. I pain my nails and get glammed up for a second date at Jelly Fish with a cute Japanese photographer.
Sunday:
Heading off to the Valley Markets to pick up a dress for next week before I go back to the library to do some more study. After a Body Balance class I go solo to My Thai in Aurchenflower for dinner, and then rent some DVDs.
Mosquitos and their bites.
Having to turn the air condition on.
Clean up the garage in the heat and getting hay fever.
Being too hot to go for a run.
Being too hot so that it messed up my day in general.
Having to turn the air condition on.
Clean up the garage in the heat and getting hay fever.
Being too hot to go for a run.
Being too hot so that it messed up my day in general.
went to a party tonight. It strikes me as kind of odd. I like staying home, I like reading, I like writing, I like running. I like being alone. There is a strong desire to reject social commitments because there just seems to be so much effort required into making an appearance at a said event. You throw on a dress and find heels to match, but change and end up wearing a skirt because you thought your books looked wonky. You get there too early and end up pouring yourself a drink with the intentions of creating a scene. So yeah, people show up and they seem nice.
People are nice. To your face. These little interconnections just get me thinking. I don't mean friends, friends are people who you make time to see, people who you cut class for, or would promise something to. Other people are just numbers - filling up the room. So you say hi and chat about Christmas presents and DVDs, but really these circles that we move in just spin the other way and there is really nothing between us besides a couple of feet and matching states of commitments.
I don't know if it's an exhaustion to these unimportant to and froms or the actually physical effort required in the transit or even in the preparation; but I really feel that standing around finding things to say with a bunch of people makes me feel even more alone. These things are more or less just formalities. I find something deeply seductive within closed lips, black eyes and silence. You can learn a lot more from what is not being said that that which is plain enough to render in my ears.
Yeah, people are great time fillers, they aid with the age old hobby of procrastination, they are experts at distraction and with a few simple words you're eating chocolate when you said you're on a diet. I guess the point I'm getting at is that it's a pretty empty world if you can't stand to be alone. Perhaps people need other people to represent themselves. Highlight what they fail to convey.
People are nice. To your face. These little interconnections just get me thinking. I don't mean friends, friends are people who you make time to see, people who you cut class for, or would promise something to. Other people are just numbers - filling up the room. So you say hi and chat about Christmas presents and DVDs, but really these circles that we move in just spin the other way and there is really nothing between us besides a couple of feet and matching states of commitments.
I don't know if it's an exhaustion to these unimportant to and froms or the actually physical effort required in the transit or even in the preparation; but I really feel that standing around finding things to say with a bunch of people makes me feel even more alone. These things are more or less just formalities. I find something deeply seductive within closed lips, black eyes and silence. You can learn a lot more from what is not being said that that which is plain enough to render in my ears.
Yeah, people are great time fillers, they aid with the age old hobby of procrastination, they are experts at distraction and with a few simple words you're eating chocolate when you said you're on a diet. I guess the point I'm getting at is that it's a pretty empty world if you can't stand to be alone. Perhaps people need other people to represent themselves. Highlight what they fail to convey.
Good morning. Can you believe it's almost Christmas! Well, it rolls around every year, each year it feels like it comes quicker and every year we loathe the Silly Season even more. Time to write down your wish list, send it to people you love and hope that your dreams come true. I feel like there are few types of people you need to buy for. So I thought what better to do (Than Japanese study) then to write a list of awesome gifts of all prices and for all people. If you would so like to, I can give you my postal address so you can send one of each to me!
For The Skins Lover Cassie Worshiper
Betsey Johnson tights - $29 from ModCloth
For the Avid Saver
Piggy Bank - $10 from Sportsgirl
For the One Who Had Everything
Umbrella -£50.00 from London Undercover
For the Fashion Plate
Christopher Kane shirt - $380 net-a-porter.com
For the Nigella Lawson
DYI Cookbook $19.95 from Sportgirl
Pefect for the Spa Lover Self Lover
Philosophy Recipe Box
Red Velvet Cake and Sweet Creamy Frosting
$42 - from Mecca Cosmetica
A Toy for the Grown Up Child
$5.90 from ModCloth
Too Mature for Their Age
Cognac Glasses - Mod-Cons $98.95 (For Two)
Perfect for the Perfect Party Giver
So French So Chic CD - $35.95 from iTues
International Language Learner
ひらがな カード - $18.95 from
メリークリスマス
Well, in my lunch hour.
Twenty Things I am Grateful For:
- Green tea with mint
- Bikram yoga
- My friends
- Understanding class content in Japanese class
- Sportsgirl Sale
- Vintage shopping
- Eating chickpeas with chopsticks
- Ripping up my French notes
- Medicare rebate
- Kopiko
- Rick Stein's Japan special
- Murukami's books
- Teen Vogue emails
- たこ焼き
- New Foxtel Channels
- Going for a swim
- My Mum picking me up from uni when it stormed
- Public transport when in runs on time
- Vicks Vapor Rub
- 味噌汁
Yes, I saw a drug bust. We drove past as the media were arriving.
It was crazy. Lots of unmarked cars. One of the houses was at the round about next to the "Welcome to UQ" sign, and you could see the whole of the roof lining half undone and a whole backyard full of pots and empty jugs. Seriously, all the pot was outside the house as we drove by - the whole front yard was just full of it.

A tip from the public has led police to the discovery of a major drugs manufacture and distribution ring operating near the University of Queensland at St Lucia.
Search warrants were executed at four properties on Sir Fred Schonell Drive and The Esplanade by members of the Organised Crime Investigation Unit and Indooroopilly Criminal Investigation Bureau early this morning, seizing about 750 marijuana plants, $15,000 in cash and cars believed to be the proceeds of crime.
It was crazy. Lots of unmarked cars. One of the houses was at the round about next to the "Welcome to UQ" sign, and you could see the whole of the roof lining half undone and a whole backyard full of pots and empty jugs. Seriously, all the pot was outside the house as we drove by - the whole front yard was just full of it.
750 marijuana plants seized near University of Queensland
Search warrants were executed at four properties on Sir Fred Schonell Drive and The Esplanade by members of the Organised Crime Investigation Unit and Indooroopilly Criminal Investigation Bureau early this morning, seizing about 750 marijuana plants, $15,000 in cash and cars believed to be the proceeds of crime.
Bags of cut and dried marijuana and hydroponic equipment valued at $70,000 have also been confiscated.
LOL!
EXAMS ARE OVER!
French was pretty good. Hard, but not too hard.
Five quotes from Journals we have studied in class, we had to give an example of said quote from the film, and then how the quote supports what is seen in the film. The second part I wrote a 400 word essay from the point of view on a character explain all the reasons behind my support of the FLN and it's action (etc).




Now I'm off to lunch with my furry vest thing and my hippy pants.
French was pretty good. Hard, but not too hard.
Five quotes from Journals we have studied in class, we had to give an example of said quote from the film, and then how the quote supports what is seen in the film. The second part I wrote a 400 word essay from the point of view on a character explain all the reasons behind my support of the FLN and it's action (etc).
Now I'm off to lunch with my furry vest thing and my hippy pants.
Interview was today. Went well, they said they were happy with the answers that I'd given them and that it was a good use of mix media and experimentation. Told them about what art I've down, photographers, what I want to do, they were very nice, but didn't let on as to my chases, although he told me to make sure that it 'was up there in my Qtac Preference list'. I forgot his name. It was kind of all a burl. I want this so bad.
I have an exam tomorrow, and although I'm ready I really wish it was on Wednesday, I'm just so mentally tired. I know my letters and have a good grasp on the subject content for the second part. Still need to learn a couple of words, couple of sentences, read over my notes and sheets. Cannot wait till it's over. I did do some study today, but I spent most of the day just...well, doing nothing. Not even watching TV or reading. Just on my bed. All this stress, I guess.


This is what I wore.


Things I love: My Allanah Hill jumper, and my Micky Mouse jumper!


Andy Warhol Cup and The Bible of the French world!!
That's all kiddos. Trying to cram these last few things in!
I have an exam tomorrow, and although I'm ready I really wish it was on Wednesday, I'm just so mentally tired. I know my letters and have a good grasp on the subject content for the second part. Still need to learn a couple of words, couple of sentences, read over my notes and sheets. Cannot wait till it's over. I did do some study today, but I spent most of the day just...well, doing nothing. Not even watching TV or reading. Just on my bed. All this stress, I guess.
This is what I wore.
Things I love: My Allanah Hill jumper, and my Micky Mouse jumper!
Andy Warhol Cup and The Bible of the French world!!
That's all kiddos. Trying to cram these last few things in!
My stomach is full of butterflies for my interview tomorrow and my exam on Tuesday. I found out that I'm sitting on 63.3% for total assessment in French. My mum is proud, I'm not too happy. Somehow I managed to tell myself that the 3% weekly homework wasn't that important - but then when only getting a total of 8 out of 15, I was struck with anger. If I'd worked harder on that homework I would probably be sitting on 72%. Oh well... such is my life! I had my Oral and that went pretty well, and I feel quite ready for my Written exam on Tuesday. I wish they had a sort of +/- thing. Because if I get 64% I'll be hating myself. That's the problem with French, assessment is worth a lot less than most subjects, five 3%, three 5%, one 30% and two 20%, a few marks here and there make up a lot. I'm just rather sick of being average. I want to do well. I've worked hard at French. Although, I will give myself some credit in saying that French really comes down to luck of the draw, you can study all you want but if you haven't studied the subjunctive enough and they ask you to translate using the subjunctive, you're kind of screwed. They ask you the questions in another language; questions which would be like what you'd find in an English language exam. If you don't understand the question, can't do anything. It's hard.
Yesterday I was tried and spent most of the day in near tears because I am just so nervous about all of this. I just want to curl and forget about all of this stuff that I have to do. I have next to nothing of a job, Qtix aren't looking for anyone (so they said) so I'm stuck on $130 a week, with $50 going to pole and yoga. The rest is going to my holiday in July. I've not been shopping, but I want to be able to by some CDs, books, some clothes on Boxing Day sales. Things are all a bit horrid at the moment due to my stress.
I have my first exam tomorrow. A 5 minute French role play between a journalist and a character from the film we watched in class in which the two debate about their opinions on the Algerian War, torture, terrorism, events etc. Then we get asked a couple of questions. I've learned both scripts off by heart and read over all the sheets were given in class. I've been mock answering questing for practice. I have until 6.30 tomorrow night to study so I really feel quite prepared. I've pulled the short straw in a class with odd numbers so I've had a bit of drama having to double up with someone. I've started studying for my exam for Tuesday week where I need to learn two 300 word letters in French and the content of articles and their context within the film - yay for two part exams.
I feel like I've been a huge glutton today. I had a big mango and some strawberries with ice and water in smoothie for breakfast. For lunch I had a salad with three spoons of cous cous, olives, chick peas, a little bit of beetroot, a piece of halumi and a piece of eggplant. I had the same thing for dinner even though I wasn't super hungry. Although I went for a walk with Mum and the dog for an hour before breakfast and I did a 10km horrid hill run this afternoon, so I figure that I'm still sitting okay considering the food:exercise ration. I just need some one to tell me "You've not over eaten"
Two days in a row my runs have been rained on. It's been interesting. I'm also craking down on my savings. I need $1500 for my trip to Melbourne and my trip to Tibet/Nepal/Singapore in July is $4000 including spending money, all the taxes and accommadation - blah blah. So I stil need to save $2000 by June. Thank goodness my 21st is in March. I feel a contribution to the holiday fund would be a lovely present. I've also saving for a looovely pair of shoes. I'm $350 towards the $850 total, this has all been loose change over the last two months. I'm going to go buy them on the day of my Birthday.
Off to be I go now, hopefully not sick after all this running in the stupid rain!
I'm super nervous about this exam!
Oh, I should hear about QUT around the 13.
When you say your nighly prayers, please tell your God/s to give me luck, I just don't know what I'll do if I don't get in.
How sad, another weekend finished.
Go forth and spread the world with love, fashion and happiness.
I feel like I've been a huge glutton today. I had a big mango and some strawberries with ice and water in smoothie for breakfast. For lunch I had a salad with three spoons of cous cous, olives, chick peas, a little bit of beetroot, a piece of halumi and a piece of eggplant. I had the same thing for dinner even though I wasn't super hungry. Although I went for a walk with Mum and the dog for an hour before breakfast and I did a 10km horrid hill run this afternoon, so I figure that I'm still sitting okay considering the food:exercise ration. I just need some one to tell me "You've not over eaten"
Two days in a row my runs have been rained on. It's been interesting. I'm also craking down on my savings. I need $1500 for my trip to Melbourne and my trip to Tibet/Nepal/Singapore in July is $4000 including spending money, all the taxes and accommadation - blah blah. So I stil need to save $2000 by June. Thank goodness my 21st is in March. I feel a contribution to the holiday fund would be a lovely present. I've also saving for a looovely pair of shoes. I'm $350 towards the $850 total, this has all been loose change over the last two months. I'm going to go buy them on the day of my Birthday.
Off to be I go now, hopefully not sick after all this running in the stupid rain!
I'm super nervous about this exam!
Oh, I should hear about QUT around the 13.
When you say your nighly prayers, please tell your God/s to give me luck, I just don't know what I'll do if I don't get in.
How sad, another weekend finished.
Go forth and spread the world with love, fashion and happiness.
Wow, so there one big storm coming over us now. It’s pretty exciting as it’s been far too hot of late. Today was a bit of a fail/win. I got up super early and made a lovely banana smoothie. I still hadn’t heard from QUT so after two days of intense nerves, sleepless nights and butterflies in my stomach I called them. So, they are still looking at folios – they ‘hope’ to have interviews out on the 13th and should be starting around the 16th. Oh gosh. I broke down and cried. Every part of my being seemed to explode off my bones and ripped down leaving me with an empty feeling in which everything was thrust outwards. The tears poured down, the air left my lungs and I just cried. I want this badly. I was so worried that I’d missed it.
I went to the State Library and got two hours of study done before I sat in the semi sun and ate my salad with chickpeas and capsicum. I walked all the way to Spring Hill and faxed off my application for Level 2 Japanese. I bought a Coffee Light Frappacino (Dirty consumer) and went to French tutoring. I’m quite prepared for the exam on Monday night, and the exam on the 17th has a finished draft and I will tackle that more when I’ve done this oral. I made a yummy tomato, rocket, chickpea and lemon zest salad and had a cup of Chai. I’ve still got to do a little more study tonight but I’m just feeling super exhausted from stressing.
Melbourne Cup was good. I made Flat Breads and Crema Catalana, Mum maid the main and I did a chickpea dish to go with it. I watched the race, lost $12 and then went to uni to study and Japanese class. This one lady who we’ve been friends with for a long time quizzed me a lot on my weight, how much I’ve lost, what size I am, how much I weigh. It was really quite confronting event though it wasn’t meant to be. I went to my psychologist who is really amazing and awesome (which I never thought I’d say) and commented on the weight I’d lossed, then at the doctors he made a comment on my weight. So slightly confused. I will one day weigh myself!
That’s about it. Lots of French study. When I finish exams I’m planning to up my exercise a lot. 5 Bikram classes, 4 long distance runs and 3 pole sessions. Lots of reading, movies and Japanese immersion. Cannot wait.
I went to the State Library and got two hours of study done before I sat in the semi sun and ate my salad with chickpeas and capsicum. I walked all the way to Spring Hill and faxed off my application for Level 2 Japanese. I bought a Coffee Light Frappacino (Dirty consumer) and went to French tutoring. I’m quite prepared for the exam on Monday night, and the exam on the 17th has a finished draft and I will tackle that more when I’ve done this oral. I made a yummy tomato, rocket, chickpea and lemon zest salad and had a cup of Chai. I’ve still got to do a little more study tonight but I’m just feeling super exhausted from stressing.
Melbourne Cup was good. I made Flat Breads and Crema Catalana, Mum maid the main and I did a chickpea dish to go with it. I watched the race, lost $12 and then went to uni to study and Japanese class. This one lady who we’ve been friends with for a long time quizzed me a lot on my weight, how much I’ve lost, what size I am, how much I weigh. It was really quite confronting event though it wasn’t meant to be. I went to my psychologist who is really amazing and awesome (which I never thought I’d say) and commented on the weight I’d lossed, then at the doctors he made a comment on my weight. So slightly confused. I will one day weigh myself!
That’s about it. Lots of French study. When I finish exams I’m planning to up my exercise a lot. 5 Bikram classes, 4 long distance runs and 3 pole sessions. Lots of reading, movies and Japanese immersion. Cannot wait.

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